Ever feel your life doesn't add up to much?
We often feel that we don't really make a difference in the lives of others.
I find myself thinking negative thoughts such as "I don't really have anything to give."
My children are grown and have left the home. And I often feel my real purpose in life left with them.
I know some where deep inside that thought is not true, but it still creeps into my mind from time to time, and I wrestle with it.
Lately I have been asking the Lord Where is it that He wants me? What is it that He wants me to do now that the Kids are grown?
I have a passion for talking to people about the Lord. It's my absolute favorite thing to do.
So pretty much every where I go, I manage to bring the conversation around to God.
Wanting to share the " latest greatest" thing God has done that I was blessed to witness.
But often is the time I ask myself if anyone else really cares.
Especially those times when I am sharing something that to me is very exciting and no one else really seems to share my excitement with me.
It can sometimes be a lonely place....yet I can not stop. I continue to share. Its like a fire shut up in my bones if I do not share.
There have been a number of times at family gatherings that I have sat in the middle of all of the kids and shared the stories of a powerful God that has changed my life.
The children can't get enough. Always asking questions . Asking for one more story.
I love that Christ tells us to come as a little child. With the faith of a little child. Because like these children who don't question when Aunt Pooh (my family nick name) tells a story whether its true or not they just ask for more.
Thats how I come to God....Oh God that was soooo good can I please have more. And He always gives more. He delights to give more.
He loves for us to gather at his feet, to be in His presence and hear whats on His heart.
Then when we take those words and share them with others we are doubly blessed.
Sometimes we don't realize the impact that we can have on others.
And when I am in one of those moments of feeling like my life doesn't add up to much. The Lord steps in and does something so wonderful that it spurs me on to the next adventure with God.
That is exactly what took place last week. When feeling a bit useless one evening the situation changed when I found myself in conversation with two boys and was sharing with them about the Lord.
At the end of the conversation one of the boys was expressing to me what happens when he is around me.
I will never forget his words, for they were precious to me.
He said " You make people rethink what they believe about God."
So in the middle of thinking that I did not have much to give. I gave what I did have and it fed someone else.
I'm reminded of the story of the little boy with the two fishes who gave all that he had and with it Jesus fed thousands.
If I give all that I have ,thought it may not seem like much, and if it changes one little life and later that one little life changes another life, theres no telling how many lives will be changed because I simply gave what I had.
LIVING FOR HIM
15 years ago
